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I've lost it

2009-09-13T19:41:00.002+08:00

Apparently, I have lost it.

I lost the dance groove in me.
My body cant seem to execute the moves and all I'm concentrating on is to catch my breath!!
When did this ever happen!?@?!

I love to dance and feel a sense of happiness when I dance around.
I get transported to another dimension and all confidence just oozes out.
Got a belly? I dont care! I just dance and dont care what other think~

But today, i was so darn concious of my belly, my body, myself.
I cant even follow the simplest moves and it really felt really horrible.
Confidence hit the lowest level.

I still love to dance and would to continue this passion.
Is it too long a break? or issit age getting the better of me?
I will perserve on to see......

I think right now, my confidence level is at all time low.
The other day, was approached by this guy at bugis.
of cos i kindly rejected, but first thought that came to my mind....is this guy trying to pull a fast one on me?
Trying to fool me?

Gosh, when did i ever ever ever felt this way?
Last time, even 2 months back, when i got approached i acted all haughty and proud.
Now im like shit.

Project Confidence. I have given myself 3 months to accomplish certain mission.
Its a must do or die.

Short Updates

2009-08-02T23:31:00.003+08:00

Zoom Zoom ZOoom....

There goes another month!

How did time fly by so darn quickly?

Things change but im glad some friendship remains.
I did a small chuckle to myself when I saw what you named this picture!!!!
It's been a while I heard that name~~My New ah-lian wannabe hairdo~~~

I'm getting tired of all these "how-are-you" SMSes.
What is the purpose and What am I supposed to reply?

Issit guys' ego that once rejected, they don't bother trying?
Or am I just reading too much?

I have given myself enough of singlehood....
It hasn't done any good and not only am I bored, I don't get pampered much~
and I can't be bothered to dress up.
and all my dinner dresses are rotting in my cupboard, and taking up quite a bit of space in my already small cupboard.

Decided this is it~ shall go back into the dating scene once more, regardless the reason~ :)

Sigh....

2009-06-11T23:41:00.003+08:00

Thats prolly what I do most these few days.

Now I fully understand all the worries adult go through.

My room is in a mess, people are breaking in, and I am leaving for Bintan in a few hours.

At times, I just feel so helpless and just wish for a helping hand or a shoulder to rest on when this journey called life is getting too tiring.

I know there is an easier option out.
But call me weird and stubborn if you like, but I am sticking to my decision.
I am sticking to my dreams.
I am sticking to being true to myself.

Its tough, but I'm a tough cookie and I will overcome it all!

About Stress

2009-03-29T23:33:00.003+08:00

Stress is piling~

I need a break.

Prolly need a retreat ~

Or I need a hobby, to relieve all these stress.

And shopping is not an option, as my bank is getting flatter~~

Spinster Me

2009-03-15T11:29:00.002+08:00

Living alone has made me independent,

However, day by day, I'm growing to become more selfish, demanding, less understanding.

More and more like a grouchy old spinster.

Am I slowly transforming into one?

Weekend Burnt

2009-03-02T00:45:00.002+08:00

My first ever proper wedding~ with my ever hawt colleagues!
COngrats Joseph & Ying Ling~

Yup yup yup~ I have moved to my new place! And i'm loving it!
(well, other than the cheap Ikea furniture that they supply me & the under renovation toilet.)

After going to around singapore to look for a "dressing table" and shoerack.......
Finally had no choice but to go with Ikea.

And handy, ex-ME student Ms Lee, after many hours finally set up the darn dressing table. (only to break 2 screws along the way, hence the whole dressing table is 1 drawer short!)

This whole moving house thing is damn draining.....and my clothes and boxes are all over the room. Just like a hurricane blew past~~~

I have no time for other things.

Will update your guys on the House?room warming~

A Penny for my thoughts

2009-02-25T21:28:00.003+08:00

As I take another big step in my life,
I pause and wonder~Am I doing the right thing?
It never occurred to me, what's wrong and what's right.
I never seriously took others' feelings into much consideration.

At the end of the day, it's my journey, my life.
We only get to live life this once.
By taking consideration other's feelings, At the expense of our own happiness,,
How right can that be?

Maybe it's selfish thinking.
Maybe this is what too much independence does.
Maybe it's just PMS.

Maybe I've seen too much of the ugly world.
To know that there are many out there just like me,
Selfishly thinking only for themselves.
If you compromise too much, you are just at the losing end.

It is such a fine line between kind-heartedness & being plain dumb

Ahhh.....such bitterness.

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Locked out

2009-02-09T01:14:00.003+08:00

Yes, before I can even move out of this place, I got locked out~

First ever time I got locked out and had to pay $80 to unlock the damn door!I shall treat it as a goodbye present. What an expensive present~ (to myself)!

And so, I called up and smsed a few of my friends while I was practically franctically banging and shouting.

It is amazing at how different people handled the situation differently.

I guess wisdom and steadiness comes with age. Really.

The older guys, gave totally different answers and were cool, calm and collected. Even managed to give me step by step instructions on what to do despite me whining and grumbling. I really felt calm and secure.

At the end of the day, no matter how tough a cookie I am, I am still a woman waiting for that man's touch and security. (think damsel in distress)

I love it when a man orders me around. (terms and conditions applies)

But thanks to all who came to my rescue, one way or another. I am really, sincerely thankful and glad of such wonderful bunch of friends who are there when needed!!!! *muacks*

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yes i know the song is a tad un-juu.

but I'm dancing and singing to lady gaga's songs.

To Do: Buy a Bible

2009-02-07T02:48:00.004+08:00

To Do: Buy a Bible

Been pretty engrossed with Feng Shui stuffs recently. To the extent where I bought the Lilian Too book. And was further interested when my colleagues went on a Feng Shui shopping spree, spending hundreds.

Call me supertitious, but I do have a tendency to believe in such luck/energy. And I found it harmless to read about it, make minor changes to my workspace/my life. Afterall, how much harm can moving 5degrees of your computer cause?

Apparently, it is not so much on whether you buy these Feng Shui items, but more on your beliefs. It's one thing to read up and learn about these Feng Shui-ness, another to practise them.

I was tempted to buy all these small charms to enhance my luck and also to ward off bad, evil luck/forces. Googled and online shopped on what items "Rats" should buy, since it is said we will be affected by the Five Yellow.

Till I read about this "Buddha Amitabha’s Mantra Ring with Black Cord" in which I immediately felt uncomfortable with the Buddha-ness. Morever, I had to CHANT some chants 108 times a day to invoke blessings.

That was when it dawn upon me that I, as a "christian" should not be doing such stuffs! I know I havent been attending churches and reading and praying regularly. But I somehow still believe, and would like to categorize myself as a "christian".

Now I am in a dilemma as to go ahead with getting these charms.

Afterall, who doesn't want good luck? Who wouldn't want to be safe and happy, not only for themselves but for their loved ones?

I mean, if someone tells you that by jumping up and down 3 times a day would bring you good fortune and health. Would you?

And if someone tells you that getting out from the left side of the bed will cause misfortune to your family. Would you get off from the right?

To what extent do we draw this line?

Dilemma, dilemma......

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On a seperate note, I am confused by some other "things".
It is hard to analyze people; be it work or personal.
Are there any easier way to read people's mind?
But then again, what fun is it if you can read through everyone's mind.

Interesting discovery:
Guys are stupid.
How difficult is it for you guys to comprehend something simple as "Leave Me Alone"?
Explicitly spelt out "Leave Me Alone" at that!

Well, I guess first thing I gotta do tomorrow is to get a decent Bible and start reading.
Cf. Deut 18:10 ; Jer 29:8

Good Days

2009-02-02T00:11:00.006+08:00

its been a while eh~

Things have been good.

Too good in fact.

I feel uneasy when my life is too smooth-sailing.

It feels as if something bad will happen, and it all comes crashing down.

Am I being overly pessimistic?

Some updates:

I bought my very first LV. (I love it very much!)
I just signed a new lease for my new apartment room. (It was love at first sight!)
My teeth is moving perfectly (or so I think). (Amazingly enough, my center gap has closed significantly!) --> However it feels as if my chin is protruding outer and outer.

I am "getting back together" with Jo (JUST as friends).

I have terminated my M1 contract and stick to Singtel iPhone. (I 'heart' my iPhone)

Things have been going too smoothly.

I have been getting whatever I wish for.

They say: When things come too easily, will go off easily.

That's what I'm afraid of.

But at the same time, I am thankful.

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I guess this is just my emo Post-MS mood.

But really I am. I am thankful. So blessed that I don't even feel I need a guy!

Gosh, V day is here again!
The horror for all singles. So much so, that they termed it "friendship day".

I got a feeling Jo will ask me out, but nevertheless, my "Friendship Day" is free for balloting/invites!!!

Shoes Glorious Shoes~

2009-01-12T00:14:00.011+08:00

My new babies that join my beautiful collection today~

My new, not-even-1-month-old babies lined up~

My SHoey Shoie Heelie heely collection

(missing some at office & old place & some too ugly/old)

Lovely heels~~~

I love love love heels. I wouldn't exactly describe myself as tall, but at 169cm + 10cm, I can conquer the world!!

One day I want to have a Walk-in Shoe cabinet (on top of my Walk-in clothes/bags closet)!!!!!!

As for now, I have to make do with the small corner of my room...... or does anyone have a better shoe keeping idea?

After that long MC break, back to work tomorrow`

Before that, one must do the important ritual of brushing and rinsing~

revealing my very first braces picture!

Post Op

2009-01-11T03:33:00.004+08:00

Alright, enough of cutesy stuff.

I'm way too old for all that Ponyo shit.
Bossa Nova is more my kind.

Wisdom tooth surgery went pretty well, I guess. Afterall it's the director plucking my tooth.
Just hope that it won't turn out to be a dry socket.

But weight-wise, there was a drop....then after all that whipped potato & ice-cream indulgence, its almost back to square one.

Its really interesting how your weight really moves with your daily activities!
Not just weight, but the fats content.

No eating = -1.5kg (of fats)
Exercising (1hour) = - 0.6kg (of fats)

Really interesting.
So if i dont eat and exercise I would lose 2kg of fats in a day!

Not to worry, I'm not some crazy person suffering from Anorexia nervosa.
I'm just deprived as I can eat hard solid MEAT! which is in a way driving me crazy~

Pre-Operation Entry

2009-01-07T00:47:00.014+08:00

before i begin anything, lemme act cute (for once) by using this cute blog with this adorable PONYO PONYO PONYO song!!!

Wow, been blogging quite frequently these days eh~

This time round, I wish to virtually pen down my feelings and thought before my operation.

HAHA....yeah yeah yeah....I'm just being irritating exagerating tomorrow's wisdom tooth extraction and braces fitting.

My colleagues just gave me a bad scared. One-by-one they come and tell me how painful its gonna be. How GIGANTIC the needles are. How loud the drills are. How numbing and painful the after-effects are.

What I initially thought of as a no-biggie has suddenly turned into a BIG-BIGGIE! No sweat man~! There's nothing too tough Ju can't handle. But honestly speaking, I'm a little, just a teeny weeny bit scared.

But what's concerning me more is the 5 day MC!!!!!! Hooray!!! NOT! I dislike taking MC when it's such a crucial period for me to be out there making business!! But I thank God for bringing in my very first Business for 2009 just like that. And I am certainly not taking things for granted.

It is really crucially important to be thankful for even the smaller things in life, not to mention the bigger things.

My life, I wouldn't say it's very smooth sailing. But I tell myself to always look at the brighter side and tell myself that every failure is just another opportunity to prove myself to myself once more. Interestingly enough, my colleague was asking me what the phrase "when life throws lemon at you, you make lemonade" means. And after explaining, I realized the amount of lemons thrown at me throughout my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and of cos the amount of lemonade I made!!!!!!!!

Maybe I'm born to make lemonades my whole life~ Gosh. Should i cry or should i be happy?

Well, I wouldn't say life has been totally brutal to me. I've got lovely parents whom I love dearly (albeit a little over-the-top naggy), and an equally naggy sis, with a wonderful layout of friends. Sadly (or should I be glad) no boyfriend/spouse/fiance/husband or whatever you might like to call it.

But I do have(or rather had) my fair share of "romances" in 2008; Mr Ah-beng car, Mr. Re-bound, Mr. Agent, and our all time favs; Mr. German and Mr. Lawyer. Whom......oh-well, let's just say the interest just died and there came upon a time where I thought things should just end for the better.

And when the balance of the relationship changed, it was time to end. I wasn't prepared. I cannot accept. I wasn't about to lose my rights as an individual, independent woman. I wasn't about to be labelled as someone's woman. I could not get over the 'gift vouchers' and 'cab fares'.

Instead of this being THE pre-op entry, it has become some ranting of a teenage girl.

Ok, I need to continue ranting. This feels good!

On second thoughts, time to sleep for my body to be fit fit fit for the op!!!!!!

Ponyo OST -

Usher 2009

2009-01-05T23:17:00.009+08:00

Gosh! I can't believe that my blog song is still singing the CHRISTMAS song!~

obviously I'm still living in 2007~ (ya, i know it should be 2008/2009 ah...watever~)

Hence I changed it to some Bossa Bossa Nova songs~ Love it love it!

a few resolutions made this year and/or rather late last year!

1. NEW TEETH!! I really thank a certain person for constantly encouraging me to go for it despite my constant procrastination. well! i'm finally doing it when yours is out!!!

This Wednesday is THE DAY for me! Torture DAY 1!!! *crosses fingers everything goes all right!

2. LOSE WEIGHT! I know I have been saying this EVERY year but this time, really gonna make it work. For starters i bought the weighing/fat scale.

And Bravo! I have been taking readings EVERY day!! not a very good start judging from the chart, but there's always room for improvement!!

3. LOVE! Love my family, love my friends, love my neighbour. I really need to put in an effort to care for the people around me.

4. SAVE! yes, I do admit I have not been very frugal the past few months. It's high time i started saving up for an apartment and stocks. I shall hit my first Million before 35!!! (is that a little too old? will KIV on the age)

But after i buy my prada phone. and my LV bag. and my Prada wallet. and.....and..... i guess its not going to ever end~

All in all, my ultimate aim, like my motto is to be a beautiful person inside-and-out.

With that my dear friends, let us welcome in 2009 and may it be as good, if not even better than 2008!!!

Goodbye 2008, Howdy 2009!

2009-01-03T22:18:00.002+08:00

Yes, it was it. It was indeed a year full or events and happenings.

2008....I'm glad it was here and I'm glad it's over.

Really looking for more great challenges and opportunities this year!!

Check out my hot red heels~ love it love it!

Nerds Galore~~

2008-12-18T00:11:00.005+08:00

It was a nerd-filled day!

Check out these geeks~ SPECTACLES ONLY!!

Chio chio~ amazingly, i can fit in my SAJC uniform~ i haven't aged one bit!!!!!!

Sales Sales~

Yeah....

more to come~

hotel stay, new hairdo, new sunnies..... i love my life~

슬픈 다짐 (Sad Promise) & 미워도 사랑하니까 (Sad Love Song) - 다비치 (Davichi)

2008-11-30T15:26:00.002+08:00

슬픈 다짐 (Sad Promise) & 미워도 사랑하니까 (Sad Love Song) - 다비치 (Davichi)

Some Pictures

2008-11-26T22:25:00.003+08:00

Wow....time sure flies~ its already year end.
It seems like yesterday I celebrated the coming of 2008~

I know its a tad early to do my year-end summary....

but this has been a really roller coaster year for me. Emotionally, mentally, physically. It really marked a big BIG step in my whole life.

I thank for friends who stayed by me thick and thin.....and listened to my endless whinning....

Okies, shall stop here before i start blabbering non-stop.

Thoughts.....

2008-11-03T01:53:00.003+08:00

I've changed so much that I can hardly recognize myself anymore.

Whatever happened to all the values I once stick so closely to?

Things that I deem unmoral yesterday seems perfectly fine today.

Things that I detest so much before seems to be my new best friend now.

Were my values too strict to begin with?

Was I being overly naive and ignorant?

I lie back and think............

My Thoughts

2008-10-26T01:44:00.006+08:00

How many faces can one have?

Something happened today which made me wonder.
It is pretty saddening and made me disgusted.
Which led to on-and-on to the following.....

Who do we live for?

Are we living for others?
Living everyday, doing everything to impress people.
Some of whom you even detest?

Why is change the only constant thing?

Why do even human change?
So drastically till unrecognizable.

Selfish-ness is ugly

So are shallow-ness, greed and superficiality
But that's human?

Why do we all grow up?

Babies are such adorable creatures.
Children are lovely bubbly source of happiness.
Adults....?

Why do some people want to be right....ALWAYS?

I used to live by my own rules,
Disapproving of certain things and behaviour.
But who are we to judge?
What makes me more righteous than a murderer?

I have decided to take a different approach to life and make all things easier.
I will learn to appreciate my surroundings more and be a little more You

No Comments

2008-10-17T00:10:00.003+08:00

A: what happened to you?
Me: I fell down
A: what happen?
A: why so careless?
Me: just fall down lah
Me: what do you want me to say?
A: serious?
Me: ....

Is it just me or are people getting dumber???

MAF 2008

2008-10-06T00:50:00.003+08:00

Our annual MAF celebrations started off with a lil what-i-like-to-call EXERCISE.

Look at our lovely natural glow~!

Then time to reward ourselves with yum yum food~

then to our celebration proper. Pretty me went around taking big-head shots as everyone else were too involved to take a proper group pic.

And so...this is our only full force group pic = MAF 2008

Done by our lil princess ali~

and i end this post with the photo which freaked everyone of us!!

Please look closely.

CLOSELY

Thanks all who made this event possible and thanks to the 3 kind angels who sent me right up do my room door step.

hot babes galore

2008-10-02T00:04:00.004+08:00

Thanks babe for the wonderful birthday package!

notice my constipated look?

gosh, I'm still not tuned back to the proper timezone.

Last Straw

2008-09-21T00:31:00.002+08:00

I think it's irritating for your emotions to be controlled by others.

And so, I've decided to heck it.

If you don't give a damn, why should I be so affected by it?

Although I don't deny I was really looking forward to it.

Giving a whole damn about it.

And me blogging about it abviously shows I still do give a damn.

But this will be the last time I do give a damn.

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On a happier note, I thank you my lovely wenz and tohz~

I love and adore the beachy bag, which I'm so gonna bring it to the beach!

And of cos I'm settling happily in the green~

Thanks to all the easterners who made me feel more than welcome!

a few pictures

2008-09-11T00:27:00.007+08:00

sweet desserts

sweet diary

sweet face

hot heels

hot phone

sweet face loves her hot phone

Some pictures

2008-09-07T23:34:00.002+08:00

first night

a gift

1 retard

2 retards

60 things most girls dont know

2008-09-06T13:02:00.005+08:00

--Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE)

--"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

--A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

--Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

--Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

--Girls are guys' weaknesses.

--Guys are very open about themselves.

--It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

--Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

--Guys will brag about anything.

--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

--No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

--Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

--Try to be as straightforward as possible.

--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

--When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

--Guys don't really have final decisions.

--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

--Guys like femininity not feebleness.

--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

--Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

--Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

--If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

--A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

--Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

--We don't like girls who are too skinny.

--We love it when girls talk about there boobs.

--Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like wheather it's a one time deal or not ....

--Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...

--When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

--Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

--Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

--Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

found this pretty interesting.... is this even true?

2008-09-01T00:47:00.002+08:00

and so I moved in.
too tired to type. just wanna celebrate this independence.

thanks choo.

it's a private affair

2008-08-28T21:00:00.003+08:00

I guess there're many reasons to making this blog private.

This blog was initially set up to entertain myself and as a diary to myself.

From this moment forth, I shall blog more about my inner and deeper thoughts.
Which sometimes can be quite scary and cruel.

I don't know but growing up can be quite a scary thing.
You get to learn the uglier dirtier side; in friends, in colleagues, in strangers.
You become more skeptical and more weary of everyone and everything
All the goods diminish and the bads magnified.

I am scared of growing up.
I'm slowly becoming a different person, taking on a different persona.
Yet despite all these, I wish to grow up.

one confused soul~

Counting Down

2008-08-24T16:03:00.002+08:00

Yeah!!

Counting down to my independence!!

Shall start packing up and embrace myself for the brighter future~ woot woot!

I'm giving up a lot of things by taking this step.

I hope the sacrifice is well worth.

Well, I shall make it all worth!

Let's all cheers for a new start!

Hi

2008-08-19T21:10:00.003+08:00

ju says hi

"boyfriend"

2008-08-18T22:35:00.002+08:00

Its really nice to have a "boyfriend".

A friend i exploit and can treat as my part-time "boyfriend".
It felt good that I can throw tantrums at and then get pampered.
Its nice being offered rides although island-apart.

However, I thought to myself. I want a boyfriend for all the wrong reasons.

So right now, I guess I'm staying single~

But the feeling is oh-so-nice~

Thank you, my friend.

Elias Green

2008-08-17T23:27:00.016+08:00

Yes, call me nuts but this is where i will be coming september.

All are free to drop by (with house warming gifts of course). teehee~

Don't ask me what brought me to this decision.
But decision has been made, and now I'm going to enjoy every bit of it!!
I'm slowly seeing my direction in life....or maybe not~

Living life to the fullest~!

Alive

2008-08-05T21:52:00.004+08:00

just a shout out to all that i am still alive!!!!!!!

A route to self discovery

2008-05-25T02:37:00.006+08:00

Nah.... i promise this entry won't be anything serious/solemn.

Just came across this personality test page which i find it rather accurate.

My results? Hah........ ain't it pretty obvious?

I remember taking such a test in SAJC and my test results were pretty different. I was an introvert then. I was what everyone thought of as an extrovert, but I knew then, deep inside I was an introvert. It's not second nature to me to walk over to a stranger and strike a conversation.

That was then.... and this is me now. I guess age, places and circumstances changes a person. But I'm still not an extreme Extrovert or any extreme personality. (Other than Perceiving vs Judging).

The results are as follows, true or not, you be the judge. (I find it disgustingly true)

ESFPs general traits:

They're constantly putting on a show for others to entertain them and make them happy.
They are lively and fun, and enjoy being the center of attention. They live in the here-and-now, and relish excitement and drama in their lives.
ESFPs have very strong inter-personal skills, and may find themselves in the role of the peacemaker frequently.
ESFPs love people, and everybody loves an ESFP. One of their greatest gifts is their general acceptance of everyone. They are upbeat and enthusiastic, and genuinely like almost everybody.
They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the finer things in life, such as good food and good wine.

Possible Career Paths for the ESFP:

Artists, Performers and Actors
Sales Representatives
Counselors / Social Work
Child Care
Fashion Designers
Interior Decorators
Consultants
Photographers

Yeah!!! I am in the right job!! But all others seems so unrealistic. Something that have never, i repeat NEVER crossed my mind.

Anywayz friends, do go and take the test, but take it with a pinch of salt. Don't read so much into the test results. You are You. As mentioned, age, places, people and circumstances changes one.

And if you wish to read more about ME ME ME (since everyone loves ME), http://leejoojoo.mypersonality.info/ and http://www.personalitypage.com/ESFP.html .

Hair

2008-04-27T21:02:00.004+08:00

Alright, and so I had the weirdiest dream; something about a new hairstyle.

So I woke up and decided to go do my hair.

Yes, not much different.

Just blacker, shorter and shinier.

*flicks hair*

Random-ness

2008-04-26T21:09:00.007+08:00

Just an upload of pictures; over-dues and recent, of what is going on in my life~ along-side my noobie artistic attempt.

where art thou

Moving on

2008-04-20T22:23:00.005+08:00

It's been a while since I've blogged.

I've realized what a fool I've been. And I'm so glad I finally woke up from my non-existent fantasy.

It took me quite some time to get my thoughts figured out and what a life I've been living.

I do and I will miss it. But I know I deserve better. And I definitely want better.

I guess this simply wraps up another phase of my life.

Quickie

2008-04-17T00:04:00.004+08:00

Ohh God forbid me to get this atrocious beauty.

been lemming it for quite some time.

will reward myself should my current job goes all well.

by well, i mean REAAAAAAL well.

lovely nite out with wenzz and franzz.

Real nice ambience~

with desserts in lovely settings~

New Start

2008-03-31T22:06:00.010+08:00

Today, I signed my life away to a new job/career.

Not sure if this is the right route for me, but I am definitely hyped up!!!

I gave myself a few short goals and I didn't realize having such goals really keeps one going!!

For starters, I am going to re-design my room! Going to get myself a new desk, bookstand and wardrobe decors!!!! And for once, I shall be un-procrastinative and get it done tomorrow!!!!

Secondly, shall stop postponing my driving test and get it done and over with this June!!!!!!

After which......

HAHA.....I know its sounds crazy and way too extravagant. So I am thinking and re-thinking. As of now, I'm just exploring my options and planning my finances. I have till June to decide.

If there's one thing I've learnt from the past 2 months, its to be thrifty and save up! But I live and love a rather extravagent lifestyle. So I guess my only way out is to EARN MORE MONEY!!!!!!

which reminds me of a song........

money money money
its so funny
in a rich man's world

Adios folks~

Is it you?

2008-03-30T19:57:00.004+08:00

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows (the way)
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust whose heart is right
And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows (the way)

The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Someone who won't take me for granted
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Musings

2008-03-30T00:08:00.004+08:00

Argh...why is planning/organizing an outing so hard? and what's up with PANG SEH-ing nowadays? Is that the new trend? Is that the new way to show friends how much they mean to you? I don't get it. And what's the thing about going MIA? It seems like the "IN" thing to do.

You make an effort to plan something, and either people

bail on you the last minute, going totally MIA
ignore your calls and smses
puts you second place
say 'see how first'
gives you conditional response
ask you to set a date, and then when I do, make up stupid excuses
make up all sorts of fucking stories saying things that I fucking didn't do (to try to lessen the guilt, which obviously is a VERY VERY VERY bad and wrong move)

I think if someone makes an effort to arrange something, the least you can do, and I seriously think its basic courtesy to give an appropriate response.

At times it can really get on your nerves when people (especially friends) take you for granted and some treating you as second class citizens. It makes you feel VERY unappreciated, especially for closer friends. Maybe it wasn't at all intentional, but it's just how things get interpreted.

Friends.....I thank those who showed concerned and thank/apologize to those whom I punch-bagged.

My Thoughts

2008-03-21T17:57:00.020+08:00

Hohoho... Please pardon me for my multiple entries. Just in the blogging mode. And it has been a while since i last updated.

Blogging about an event is so easy. Blogging about a thought is much difficult. Now I shall attempt to blog my thoughts.Sometimes I too wonder whats in my thoughts? Whats in this magnificent brain of mine? And at times I am left without an answer. Too many things have been happening and to put them into words is a feat itself. I will put them into points.

I once "complained" my life was too smooth sailing and I wanted it to be a little harsh so that i can experience hardship and be moulded into a better, stronger person. I once read a quote:
“A gem cannot be polished without friction, nor a man perfected without trials.”
I'm not a crazy sadist, wanting and loving turmoils and hardships, but in order to be a beautiful person inside-out, I am willing to take in sufferings. And I have no idea where my life leads to, but in Him I place my trust.
Boys! or rather men!! How can they not be in my thoughts?! At the age of 23, I am still openly single. When I was much younger, I had plans to get married at 24, give birth at 26 and be a happy mother of 2 at 28! But that was when I was muccccch younger, and planned without much thoughts. I will be turning 24 in half a years time and way far from my childhood "goals".

My current (dare i say) love life revolves mainly around 2 men. Both of which are not marriageable partners. (How sad) But both which i enjoy the company of.

Guy A is of marriageable age and have very attractive qualities. Great career, a devilish body, witty charms, a total gentleman with a nice ride. He however is not interested in marriage at the moment. He wants a mutually exclusive relationship. Simply put, a fling.

Guy B is far from marriageable age but have a very attractive qualities for a man of his age. Great career, lovely house, nice club memberships and invitation to grand events. He just came back from a Fendi event in Rome at some fancy castle and some Bulgari owner's vintage car event. I have no idea what this man wants and no idea what I want out of him.
There was this time, if some of you might remember, Guy A went on a Bali escapade with XXX. And it triggered my bitch fit. I went all green-eyed and it totally affected my well-being. Up till today, i have no idea who Guy A spent his time with and I am slowly coming to terms with it.

This time, it was MY turn to go on a Batam escapade with XXXXs. And I told Guy B that. He got kinda unhappy and kept saying which of my boyfriends I went with and why he wasn't invited. (Kinda like how i reacted to Guy A)

Then soon after I got an invitation to go Salzburg with Guy B as he has an extra ticket. I turned him down (as it was too rush and I don't know what to tell my parents). And so he asks where I wish to go on a holiday. He said I might enjoy Langkawi and/or Bali and next time he will definitely plan something in advance. Seriously, Istill think he is just unhappy that I went Batam with some other people. Hah!

I am pretty flattered and definitely would love to attend fancy Fendi and Bulgari private events. And i already hinted to him (or rather told him straight in the face) that I like to be romanced (i.e. candlelit dinners, flowers, presents, nice champagne). You know how in movies and dramas, those damn rich guys always buys nice diamonds and bring girls to fancy restuarants. I am still waiting my dear....still waiting...

I feel more appreciated with Guy B as he always makes an effort. But I feel like we're world's apart. He lives in a different world. Every time i meet him, I have to be dressed to the nines. Cos of him, I bought dresses like never before. Hey, don't get me wrong. I honestly love to dress up and be brought to posh places but "is this me"?

As much as I love to dress up, I love to wear flip flops and shorts. It's basically my attire. But apparently, Guy B dislikes people in shorts and flipflops with bulging tummies. He doesn't even like eating out of paper (that being pizza hut and kfc). I think he will faint and be left totally speechless if he sees the normal me.

Okie, this whole entry is turning to some Guy-crazy entry. (Note to self: I need to have more guys.) Shall stop here. And now, back to my thoughts.
Diet on halt. Omg...I paused it for a moment and omg.....this is getting really out of control. and weight is coming back like yo-yo. Is that why they call it yo-yo effect?

Better keep in control and start attending amore faithfully. It's back to chicken breast and boiled/steamed and bland food.

Oh great, my blogging mode is off now, gotta go clean up the house before my parents come and get a shock of their life. And my whole body is itching like hell.......peeling from aftersun is no joke.

Japp Marche

2008-03-21T16:27:00.007+08:00

And so it is.....

4 random people turned up for some last minute dinner arrangements at the fancy japanese marche.

Should you intend to have dinner there, please be in before 7.09pm.

After this magical time, there will be a loooong queue.

Our first dish courtesy of Mervina....the legendary omelette~

Ratings: 3.8 out of 5

General Food Ratings: 3 out of 5.

For the price you pay, it aint exactly well cooked.

As seen from my burnt chicken chop.

~~Desserts~!

I totally adored the mango dessert.

Nice fluffy ice with sour mangoes.

(Pardon me for the weird people in the backdrop)

Not so sure if the same can be said for jenni's green tea float.

And Mervina's banana crepe, tastes a little rotten.

Desserts Ratings: 4 out of 5

There goes mervina doing "cute-adorable" things again...

Idiocy Ratings: 4.9 out of 5

Always room for improvements.

Batam Turi Beach Resort

2008-03-21T00:24:00.019+08:00

And here it is....my trip to Batam (NOT SIJORI but Turi Beach Resort.)

Wasn't too keen given my past experience in Batam.

*Shudders*

But nevertheless gave this trip a go.

Three beautiful ladies admist many men.

The boat ride was shaaaaky~

But we still posed beautifully~~

Arrival at the Batam Cruise Centre.....

All cheery and happy!

Arrival at Turi Beach Resort

with out barang barang

and a Ball?

Welcome to Turi Beach Resort.

Really a beautiful view~

and 3 hot girls!

Check out the room man!!!!

done up like a nice princess room!

yours truly posing for the camera

with the mozzie net curtain.

Bai Tu poses!!!

haha

In front of our rooms....:)

3 princesses in the carriage

with 2 ermmm...princes?

Big Head Shot

2 vainpots self-shooting..

Just love this picture~!

Check out our hot backs!

At Lunch table.

Feast for a king~

Dinner outside at some kelong-ish place.

Cheap seafood with wonderful setting.

Happy and Satisfied us~

Although this picture was a little shaky.

~in magical land~

I am back!!!

2008-03-09T00:16:00.003+08:00

Would love to blog more but I'm zoning off... I have yet to bathe.

Enough of retail therapy (just kidding. how can i ever have enough?!) I need "Friend Therapy"!!!! I'm just this close to losing my sanity. Friends, I need you!!!!!!

Updates

2008-03-06T22:12:00.001+08:00

i'll be back soon! Like real soon!

I seriously can't wait. I miss my bed, i miss my self time. I can be such a loner.

There's so many things to be done. My asos spree is here! Can't wait to fashion parade in my new clothes and shoes!

This entry is so so very incoherent. Shall end it here and chit chat with you guys when i'm back.

Why

2008-02-26T00:15:00.001+08:00

Why do your praises come out so cheap?

It's Picture Time!

2008-02-25T04:17:00.013+08:00

Yes, boredom is getting the better of me.

At 4am I was busy photo whoring.

It shows how much I love myself.

And I am proud to say my face looks slimmer after losing a whooping 9kg.

So what's a better way to celebrate than taking more pictures of ME?!

I know the retard-ness of some photos can be real deadly.

But that's how Ju likes it!

Ain't this lovely?

I still find something amiss.

The last picture seems a little off.

But oh well, Ju still looks lovely~

My first attempt at Lao Hei.

Interestingly enough, throughout my 20 odd years in Singapore, I never had the chance to Lao.

Thanks to my lovely ex-colleagues for bringing me to my very virgin Lao Hei experience.

My very first LAO HEI!

Lao Lao Lao~!!

I found this super amazing and took a picture of it.

"Be wary of thieves that may strike from the neighbouring cubicle"!!!!!!!!!!

What does it takes to piss in peace?

As I admire myself to sleep~
I know...I'm such an ego-head.

Like who cares!
Hah!

Some thoughts

2008-02-21T19:23:00.015+08:00

Recent events got me thinking....... What kind of a person am I?

I have no idea to this question. Do I really portray the image that I am only after wealth and material goods of this world?

I do admit I particularly love the finer things in life. I love to be treated the best and I think I, as well as every girl, deserve this.

It's not that I demand to be given the best, or I require royalty queen treatment. But I believe in appreciating and indulging in the finer things in life and it is nice if that someone share the same beliefs. It is nice for that someone to tell you that you deserve the best there is. Not just through mere words, but through actions.

I know "best" can be in non-monetary terms, and money doesn't always have to come in play. But pratical me choose to be happier with a "cartier ring" than a " homebaked brownie" (for now). It's a choice that makes me happier and please don't judge me with this. Who are we to judge anyway?

To the question raised, I still am clueless. We are afterall living each day to find the answers to such questions. And just when you thought you got it all figured out, it all points back to square one.

I have put my dating life on hold till I can get a grip of myself. Plan's all set to leave on the 26th. Will be back with a fresher mind, a fresher perspective, a fresher look, a fresher career, and hopefully with a fresher love life. And hopefully I will have some answers when I'm back.

Happy Valentine's

2008-02-15T14:26:00.005+08:00

사랑 안해♡ by 백지영

2008-02-10T21:44:00.003+08:00

그렬려고 그랬어 돌아가려고 너의 차가움엔

I was going to do it; I was going to go back to your cold heart.

그래다 이유 있었던 거야. 나를 만지는 너의 손길 없어진

Yeah, there were reasons, but he outstretched hand that once reached for me is gone.

이제야 깨닫게 되어서 내 맘 떠나간 것을

Because I can see the truth now, you’ve left my heart.

설마 하는 그런 미련 때문에 그래도 나는 나를 위로해

Because of the longing I still have for you, I try to console myself

나 이제 이러는 내가 더 가여워

But now I feel sorrier for myself.

이제라도 널 지울 거야 기억에 모두를

Now, I’m going to erase you and everything from my memory.

이제 다시 사랑 안 해. 말하는 난 너와 같은 사람

From now on I’ll never love again. What I’m saying is that

다시 만날수가 없어서 사랑할수 없어서

I can’t meet a man like you again, because I can’t love a man like you again

바보처럼 사랑 안해 말하는 널 사랑한다

But…I love you though you say you don’t love me

나를 잊길 바래 나를 지워줘@

I want you to forget me; to erase me.

바보처럼 몰랐어. 너의 두 사람 아직 기억하려던 그건

Like a fool, I didn’t know

그래 다 욕심이야 다짐했건만. 매일 아침 눈을 떠

I open my eyes every morning

지나간 너에게 기도해 나를 잊지 말라고

and pray for the old you not to forget me

제발 지금 내가 바라는 하나 내 얘길 너무 쉽게 하지마

Please, I only want one thing: Don’t talk about me so easily

차라리 나를 모른다고 말해줘

Better yet, say that you don’t know me

시간 지나 알게 될 거야 내 사랑의 가치를

You’ll know my love’s worth as time passes

이제 다시 사랑 안해 말하는 난 너와 같은 사람

다시 만날수가 없어서 사랑할 수 없어서

바보처럼 사랑 안해 말하는 널 사랑한다

나를 잊길 바래 나를 지워줘

내가 없는 내가 아닌 그 자리에 사랑 채우지마

Don’t waste your love when I’m not even there

혹시 만날 수가 있다면 사랑할 수 있다면 아프잖아

If we were to meet again, if we were to love again, you know it’d hurt

사랑한 널 지켜보며 사랑한다 그 말

As I watch over you, the one I love, the words “I love you”

한마디를 하지 못해서~

is the one thing I didn’t say

Boredom

2008-02-10T13:00:00.002+08:00

I'm pretty bored, hence the frequent entries.

Wanted to blog about the Edison photo incident. But Edison told me not to, so i shan't. Haha...

Yeah yeah yeah.... and now for some self indulgence.

Random Thoughts

2008-02-09T01:57:00.001+08:00

I suddenly remembered this incident, whereby I was with Josef, then my "funky" ringtone rang...... (nicole scherzinger's Whatever You Like)

his reaction was priceless..... with a weird shocked look, he asked is that YOUR ringtone?

hahaha.....that funny incident suddenly flashedback in my head.

well, and then it occured to me of our super age difference. And how "young" I am. But his taste in music (i.e. OPERA and Diana Krall) is slowly influencing me. Not that i don't like Diana Krall before, but for the whole of today, i have been listening to her songs, even while playing mahjong~

I always wanted to talk about this "relationship". I don't know where is this heading. But I'm taking one step at a time.

I will say I'm comfortable with him and he has got alot to offer. And I always love nice fine dining and being "romanced". I like him "complaining" that I don't reply to his smses. I like him always complimenting me. I like him complaining how busy he is with work yet take time off smsing me. I like him always talking about his boys. (yes, proves that he loves them very much and its very attractive mind you)

Well we were sitting at this club, and the topic about marriage popped up and at that moment in time, a freaky thought went through my head. I know...FREEEAKY~

wow, i can't believe i wrote one whole chunk about him.......

~~~~~~~~~~~~

Anywayz, I was checking up some jobs today and 1 caught my attention. Operations Management Trainee at some Bar Restuarant. Sounds interesting. Maybe you guys will see me PRing at Dempsey. opps~! i just said the place out.... but nothings confirm yet, just keeping my options open.

this year ang bao collection not very good lah...... but I'm still going ahead with buying my BAG BAG!

Now the question is.....WHICH ONE?

DAmmm! this whole entry is becoming so bimbotic. I shall end here.

Gong hei Fatt Choy

2008-02-06T14:46:00.001+08:00

The diva wishes all a properous lunar new year!!! i'm all dressed up for the festive season with my big "gold coin" earings. More money!!!! More money!!!

Wow, it has been a while hasn't it?

Many things have been happening and those following up closely with my life know what's been going on and i thank you very much for your concerns. But you guys know me well enough to know that im strong and cheery all the time.

Thanks Choo for constantly being there for me~ And hope josef wasn't a shocker. Well, he enjoyed your company very much and you are always invited to join us~~ *smiles*

i love this photo! cannot see my double chin!!! muhahahha.....

and of cos i went to camwhore with my lousy O2 phone..... so let me indulge myself and my readers with pretty photos of the divA~

Cheers!!!

Where are you

2008-01-17T23:12:00.001+08:00

where are you
i'm slowly losing you
and i cant find you anymore

i thought i knew you well enough
i thought i got you all summed up
but now im lost and i really dont know

an empty case filled with shatteredness
an empty soul living without a cause

why have you changed so much till it breaks my heart?
please come back to where it all began
we'll take it from there once again

this journey im willing to walk
time will tell if we can conquer this all
======================================

really sick and tired
can this all end?
i need a shoulder to cry on?
or just a comfort hug.
all these are driving me crazy.

Max Ehrmann - Desiderata

2008-01-06T20:58:00.001+08:00

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.

Work Vs Personal

2007-12-25T22:11:00.001+08:00

I always wanted to sit in a porsche or a ferrari....

Saw many WOW cars parked outside Mandarin Hotel the other day and people crowding around those cars just to take pictures. And at that point in time, i told myself....I am gonna be owing those cars one day and be chi chi and all.... attending those parties and flaunt all my diamony stuffs. *dreams*dreams*

Back to today's topic:

I don't know where one should draw the line between personal and business.

My first date proposal from a prospective business client. I'm sure there are more to come. I'm definitely flattered. A eligible bachelor (albeit a little too mature) asking me out for dinner/drinks.

Didn't know a casual conversation over a net-working session could turn like this. Am I thinking too much?

Well, invitation is accepted and I will definitely keep my mind open~

2007-12-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas all!!

Today, i had some alone time....SHOPPING TIME!!!!!!!!!

BUT i couldnt find my GUESS shoe!!!! I have been searching high and low for it.....i went to like almost all the guess boutiques but they either stop selling it or don't have my size!!! curse my big big feet!!!!

(the shoe i want!!!!!!!!!!! should you find this in size 9.5 or 10, please please please please inform me!!!!!!!!!
for more info, please go to: http://www.shoes.com/product.asp?catalog%)

I have a size 9 - 10 feet. and for a girl its humongous. but it's proportional to my height (and helps me balance) so i shouldnt be complaining....But what's with all the small shoe sizes!!!!!

I couldn't even take down the display set to try cos all the display set sizes are 5-7 which my beautiful feet can barely get in~

Tomorrow or Wednesday, i will go to the remaining Guess selling places to find my shoe. else im going to buy the fitting size 9 shoe.

Well.....the day ended well with me visiting like 10 over Guess selling places and ending up buying 2 other shoes. BUT i won;t stop until i find THAT shoe!!!

And the ROyce chocolates are so delicious. i hear my fats growing again. ..... no no no...i need to lose like 25 more kg!!!

2007-12-24T00:58:00.000+08:00

GCE (aka Great Christmas Escape)

events may not be in chronological order... and I'm too lazy to type so not much words. and i cant be bothered to photoshop the pictures, hence forgive me for the blackish not much life pictures~

whisked off to batam via penguine ferry. thanks to our all-time lateness, we had to take the lastest ferry there. looking all bright and cheery before the roller coaster ride...doing what we do best (aka photo taking) throughout the 45 mins ride..due to my perfectly honed phototaking skill, only the intended faces are captured and the backdrops are dropped! hahaUpon our arrival........ yeeky welcome syrup juice. The look on Cai's face speaks it all...:D

Me ...the main focus! muhahahahahathe brother-sister combi....Us "working it"there was this magic mirror where you can see whatever girls want to see... A SLIMMER US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Christmas gift exchange!!!! i hope my mortal likes my gift!!!!Mugger-us studying~The next morning! started off again with more photo-taking~full attendance photo!
immitating the ermmmm...statue? More presents!!!!!!!Great Friends~
Weird friend....
Gross cheeko friend~
Lovely Scenery~
Lovely Me!!!!

Im so lazy to write but the pictures speak a 10000000 words. Although a slacky retreat...it was a great one. although a total disaster to my diet routine.....but to these important people in my life.....Thank you~

2007-12-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

Christmas Aloha~

Oh No!!!! i havent been blogging...till now my chatterbox is dead!

Now a short update on my very interesting life~ not. haha...just an update for my X'mas party!

Day started off with uncle toh fetching all of us....thanks uncle toh for chauffering me around for past few days....:D:D

The phototaking started since getting onboard....(well, it started at home already, but i was in my PJs hence not uploading~ )Welcome to Christmas Aloha~pretty receptionist~~~

us in the toilet touching up and posing~
then with cute ABI and Ang moh~ wooohooo....Then i started going around DA TOU TIE-ing with everyone....

with my beautiful colleague Sailormoon....with my bestest wennzzzwith this pretty fanzzz and also my favourite......my big big boss! muhahahaha....doesn't he look adorable?!

later took with uncle toh and alex on our way to supper.....

i like this pic.....we look so angelic~

and of course there were lots of self adoration for the night~~~~

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL~~~

2007-10-21T14:38:00.000+08:00

I'm Updating~

Been a while since i last update my blog. Really busy mah....and everyone else is not updating....so i follow suit loh~ hahahaha...

First up, some taiwan pics. Really back dated i know, but i just received it from eva...what to do~

Us and the princess of some tribe~ Princesses unite~at some strange restaurant.. with nice structures and decoMy monkey~Having fun with monkey. hahaha...Some famous hotel....ermmm...

Then there was the grad photoshoot. have yet to get the proper pictures to develop...but don't we all look so pretty?~

Leaning tower of millenia~

Our very own Happy hour with coleagues~!!

at alley bar. gulping down our favourite beer~

after a day of phototaking~ hahahaha..chio annot?Cutesy~

FLy~~~Acting cute~~ Kawaii desu-ka?

Our favourite pic of the day~ chio model (wannabes) hahaha

2007-09-27T21:04:00.001+08:00

Damn you MEEKIA!!!!!

damn it!! the mee kia is still stuck in my nose!!!! who knows how to take it out? very painful and miserable leh!!!! damn the meekia!!!

anywayz, thanks for the birthday wishes my dearest friends.

and once again, the MAF was a great get-together!! Watery mooncakes, bitter dry pomelo, dangerous leftover sparklers, chocolate 1000 leaves cake......what can be too difficult for 6 beautiful ladies and 1 beast?

gong xi ~gong xi~

1000 leaves say hi!

without fail~

Let's all hope this MAF tradition stays alive for many years to come!!!

2007-09-23T22:37:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Ju~

a collage of me for me

Here's a peek at my favourite colleagues!!!!! Girl Power!!and this cute korean guy i met at the conference~ *winks*A typical happy hour down at our favourite haunt

2007-09-14T16:15:00.000+08:00

A QUickie~

Pardon me for my lack of entries for it was a really hectic week. all smiles and friendlies. but nevertheless a great experience~

I thank Carol and photographer for the wonderful pictures thus far and seriously, i give him the two thumbs up. FAR FAR FAR better than rocky smocky~

the photos aren't exactly processed finish, but here's a quick preview.

this looks so nicely focused. the background slowly faded and 5 great friends walking down the memory lane~aint this just lovely?we look so like ourselves!!!! look at amy!!!! hahahahahathis pic....i totally adore....can see carol's sexy leg~ *woot*woot* hahaha...but i think its a great grad shot~ My grad shot with 4 people gossiping in the background! hahahaha

2007-09-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

I'm Bored

darn....im so bored.

supposed to go amore and facial but cant bring my butt out. so here i am; one sad soul typing 3 blog entries in 1 day.

there are sooo many things i want to buy.

i want to buy them so badly i keep thinking about them and look at them everyday. but i just dont wish to part with my hard-earned money. it is really hard-earned man. wonder when i can start earning 5 digits...:D:D

i have been looking at the e61i handphone for the past dunno how many days. checking out where is the cheapest. but its just a want and i know i shouldnt buy. grrrrr....i hate being not rich!!!!!!!!!

i want a desktop badly...but it costs 1.5k to get a decent one!@# i shall just have to make do with carrying my company's laptop around or get my toshi fixed. toshi toshi please be well...

gone are those days where daddy buys everything.....i feel richer yet poorer....:(

i just adore this song, especially this female version. the male version sounds too rough for my liking.

sien lah...have to start clearing up my room and throwing away my secondary/jc/uni stuffs, which im very sure i wont be in contact with for good.

i love my new zara jacket. *pose*pose* well worth the money! :D i just hope its formal enough to meet clients. now i just need another blazer and formal working dresses~

2007-09-02T19:04:00.000+08:00

September

its already September!!! and do you know what that means?!

did i hear someone say the diva's birthday? so darn right!

turning 23......how freaky. and i actually planned to get married at 24 when i was much younger....

talking to my friend (who's birthday falls 2 days behind mine) about how to celebrate birthdays. it seems like i just had my 21st birthday last year. what shall i do this year?

you guys better keep the day free ah......or else......

2007-09-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

KTV

went ktving with the girls oh yeah......

i've come to a point where i feel uncomfy not wearing make up out....oh help~

after ktv i went shopping alone. wasnt really in the mood and bought 1 zara jacket....~

wanted to get their dress but stoopid leh... so easily zao geng!~ shall think about it..

Shopping anyone?

2007-09-01T00:34:00.000+08:00

Hello?

Before cobwebs start growing on my blog, I shall start updating.

There's nothing much going on in my life other than work work work. I don't particularly dislike it. In fact it is pretty fun! There are lots of things I'm learning now. You get really interesting things happening.

Had my first visit from Gordon to have lunch with me. Being a wonderful host, and him being the first ever to visit me, i gave him a lil treat! EH brother, treat me back when u get your first paycheck leh~!! or at least pass some good luck to me.

oh yeah, the graduation photo preview....tada!~

Not fantastically taken...but well, the memories will last a lifetime~

At least i made use of my grad gown! in the last photo gordon very sexy leh...your stash or watever you call that is sliding down....woooo....*slurps*

everyone~ join in the mood and sing along~!! the all time fav grad song!!!!

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And There was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

Chorus:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

*Repeat chorus*

La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

2007-08-26T16:13:00.000+08:00

well, i've been meaning to blog for quite some time but busy-ness got the better of me (or rather laziness)

but i was down with the flu bug or rather URTI for a few days and now im slowly recovering. Hope i dint pass to anyone..:D:D

Starting work gives you a little bit of financial stability. And with that, come alot of wants...

desktop
wifi phone
ipod
ds lite
blazers
hair services
nail services

alright, shant be greedy and these shall be my want list for now. i shall slowly prioritize and manage my finances once my life gets settled down.

2007-08-21T20:49:00.000+08:00

hehe...

2007-08-09T18:01:00.000+08:00

happy national day ya'll

well, there always a flip side to a coin. today i saw another side of the world.

private blog

2007-08-07T13:35:00.000+08:00

"networking" session

back from yet another "networking" session.

this time, it was baseball match!!!!!!!!! we got those vip room at the top where its all aircon and nice. just like those in the movies where the highclass people mingle.

the feeling? nothing much. i actually thought it might be some big deal. afterall it was something that i only dreamt of; a part of the highclass business people. But yes, i was there and it wasn't much. very few actually watched the game. it was all talking and talking. so for 6 hours we were talking and all smiles and not forgetting lots of booooooze.

wow, im taking a liking to beer.

i used to detest beer. but now im drinking like almost everyday. i think by the time i reach singapore, my alcohol tolerance will be pretty high. not to mention the mixes here are like 99% vodka, 1% coke.

i seriously am dying to get back!!!!!!

we gotta do lunch, dinner, ktv when i get back. lots of catching up to do my friends. and i need gossip partners!!!!!

till then, take my my lovelies:)

Love,
Struggling trainee

before i go off, i decided to make a list of must eat food when i get back to singapore

MY MOM'S COOKING!
nasi lemak
laksa
wanton mee
sushi
dimsum
chillicrab
mini hot pot
yong tao fu
hokkien mee/carrot cake/mee goreng

actually any decent ASIAN food and im cool with it. just no American style/ texmex style food.

2007-08-06T14:59:00.000+08:00

Quick Update

Alright, more pictures for my adoring fans...... haha

We went to this old toyshop and found the strangest things. i found 3 cute blue hats and suggested we take this silly picture. hahaha....:D

Chocolate Factory behind us. This was before i lost my wallet. Yes, i lost my wallet. But all is fine and dandy. The people here are honest..:D:D But i really got the shock of my life!! I was close to tears and thinking of the worstest scenarios

With Giddy-up cowboys!!! They are some contestant for the rodeo show, hence the number tag.

A casual lunch with my "classmates" at the great buffet place...*yum*yum* but i still miss Singapore food. and more than anything else, my mom's cooking~!!!

Before or after happy hour. I didn't even know we took this pic. hahaha...

Well, today my bosses arrived. and it was get to know each other time. Its great having a female mentor/boss and im looking forward to getting to know her more.

Tomorrow, the Biz ppl will be going to a baseball game organized by the company, hopefully. Please not let it be Happy Hour. *crosses finger*

2007-08-03T13:51:00.000+08:00

Pearl Milk Tea

today finally i ate some decent meal!!!!! not to mention its free~~ haha....

my dallas colleague brought us to some taiwan place to eat authentic taiwan food and bubble tea!!!!!!!!!

ermmm... the food was great!! but he ordered milk teas.....and well...i wasn't around to object......(fyi, i dislike teas. all sorts. if a friend asks me to drink tea, even when i told her/him countless times, i will get very disappointed.)

But since he is such an angel, i had a sip, and at that moment, i !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you mean i have been missing out this whole heavenly goodness for my past 23 years?!! now i know what amy has been enjoying all these while!~ or maybe this particular milk tea is nice. without the slightest bit of tea taste. its just so milky and nice....

but watever the case is, wow....im gonna drink up cups and cups of bubble milk teas when i get back!!!!!

wonder if my first ever paycheck came in? this month is the bonus month.....and i probably wont be getting any but well.....$$$$$$$ i need to pay up my shopping bills.

2007-08-02T10:33:00.000+08:00

Texas, The Land of Taxless Shopping~

crap...

taxless shopping my ass!

just when my colleague told me i can refund my taxes......its bounded by a million gazillion requirements.......like wth?!!

up till today i spent like close to US$2000 which totals up to US$150 in tax....and guess how much this is in SING dollars?!?! $230!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! $230 just fly away cos of the gazibillion requirements. Who made up those requirements anywayz?!

Alright, so maybe 1/3 of it is spent on food....BUT STILL!!!! don't forget the hotel bills....

to make up, im gonna start stealing more food!!!!!! hahaha... just had happy hour (HH for short) and now im soooo full.... next week, i shall eat more!!!!!

anyhowz, 2 more weeks!!! im patiently counting down my arrival....NOT! i seriously cant wait to get back!!! i've stayed here long enough. any longer, i'll just be fatter and more haggard.

i too wanna go back and sign up for fun fitness packages....not to mention FREE...muhahaha...

on a side note, the medicine here is really weird....in the sense that my face swell like mad after consumption! and as long as i've lived, i have NOOOO allegic reactions to anything. ya...im practically rubbish dump.

alrighty, my game is done downloading! seey'll reall soon!

and jowie, happy birthday, im sooooo sorry i forgot yours. i'll make it up to you with a big kiss! muacks!! haha....

2007-08-01T09:59:00.001+08:00

Upside Down Lyrics

2007-07-31T12:00:00.000+08:00

oh please bear with me while i whine and whine..... for today the world looks gloomy from my window.

you know at times, you are at the top of the world~ and yet at times the world seems to be throwing freaking rotten lemons at you.

today, it seems like the world is pouring heaps of rotten lemons..... all the overdue ones included.

i miss home....

ah....im just pms-ing~

2007-07-29T15:10:00.001+08:00

Shopped and shopped and injured

Gosh...... my arms hurt like MAAddd....its KA-RAY-ZEE i tell ya....

i think i was lugging some 10kg of goods in my arms for like 7 hours. Alright, maybe 10 kg is a way too exaggerated amount. but its AT LEAST 5kg for sure@!

dont ask me how much damage is done to my pockets. the damage to my arms is enough to kill me. i can't even put my arms straight....no joke...:(

now the problem is lugging the God-knows-how-heavy luggage back to singapore.

next problem is to scrimp and save the next 2 weeks here... yeah! i can lose all the weight i've gained here!! haha... kill 2 birds with 1 stone!

aiyah...but i've yet to eat the coldstones ice-cream saranya and cindy was raving like mad about. making me alll jealous a year back..... it shall be on my to-do list before i fly back.

i'm coming back soon!!! just 2 more weeks!!! aren't you all excited?!? well, u better be!!

2007-07-26T06:50:00.000+08:00

Hi ya'll~~ Howdy!

Last Saturday was Forthworth day! !

all hyped up! in the train cam whoring and map reading

some nice building behind us.

in some old pub drinking ermmm......smoothie and kopi???

all ready for our rodeo show~!

Inside in BOX seats of the rodeo show~ the view was fantastic~

yippeee~~ on our way home after one tiring day!

some other random pictures.....

2 young girls outside our office building enjoying the fountain.

a casual happy hour in our hotel

the horsie pony? its supposedly the symbol of dallas? pegasus? (in the old red museum)

to the left is our hotel and our office in front.

this is where JFK got shot.

haha....thats all folks. so lazy to post more pictures...these pics are from my colleagues anywayz...hahaha....i cant be bothered to upload mine....

2007-07-23T07:37:00.000+08:00

i miss my SEP travelling times.....especially with cindy the super-shopper and the super enthu girl. at least someone was enthu enough to go travelling and share the same passion for me for outlet shopping.

im gonna blog in the private blog.

picture-less post....NOT!

2007-07-21T10:27:00.001+08:00

Picture-less post...NOT! (updated)

alright....the only reason i'm not blogging is cos I'VE AINT GOT NO PHOTOS! or rather, im lazy to specially go down to upload them.

I dislike picture-less blog. pictures speak a 1000 words? and i like looking at my beautiful self.

Life here is great! But too many happy hour and socializing events really drains me. Drinking till the wee hours and having to report to work at 8am is torturous!!!!

But whatever the case, im top-student material! i just wanna show off...so do let me indulge in this pathetic pleasure.

haha..just got praised by my trainer today. she came over to me after class, saying that i will be a very good consultant (someone who helps clients set up technical stuffs) and i should think of switching over cos i will do well. she says im even better than her when she just started! hahaha...i do admit im pretty ok with the software, sometimes finishing even faster than the consultants themselves. (but with the help of my fellow consultant friend) HAHAHAHA..... (haha...talk about humility!)

whatever the case is, im just good at everything lah!!! but well, thats an option i will seriously take into consideration. Maybe i can plan out my career path in that direction.

today, having a little too much alcohol going into my system the past few days, i've decided not to go socialize. hey hey....not as if i like to drink ok! its really to "ying chou" aka "entertain". now i understand "ying chou-ing" its not as easy as it sounds. and free alcohol is, at the end of the day, torture.

As much as i'm excited about training, i miss home. i cant wait to get back! (of course after satisfying all my thirst for shopping) in fact, i cant wait to start work proper. i seriously want to know if i have a future in this company. and i seriously want to excel real bad! promotions baby!!!

Alright, guess im boring myself talking about work related stuffs.

In any case, peeps, if you do wish for me to buy back stuffs for you,
please state and not give vague descriptions. Maybe the following websites will
be of help~
Cosmetics: http://www.sephora.com/
Books & electronics: http://www.walmart.com/
Coach: http://www.coach.com/
Ralph Lauren: http://www.ralphlauren.com/

But please bear in mind a 8.25% non-refundable tax. and please please please dont ask me to buy heavy stuffs. i'll kill you!!

On a happier note, my face is getting better! not that it was horrible to begin with.... but with constant care (like real) and some real cheap DIY remedies, together with good moisturisers and makeups, it seems my face looks real nice recently (excluding the occassional pimples). Considering thick makeups everyday, Im pleasely satisfied with my face. I LOVE MY FACE!

oh great. just when i thought tonight is going to be a peaceful night....in comes a call. adios friends~

Just received some pictures from my friend of day 2 (which is like 2 weeks ago?) where i brought them up north for some shopping!

Us at the train station!!i loveeeeeee iphone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Us at some random restaurant.

2007-07-14T13:04:00.000+08:00

Short Update

Ouch...my tummy hurts. must be the drinks...... the "sex in the jungle" was so nice i greedily gulped it down.

Nice hanging out with my colleagues. although some are really weird, its nice just to chill out and gossip. Dunno how i became the "party-planner" and organizing outings became my duty...:/

oh well, glad things turned out well. and being an efficient "party-planner", tomorrow, we are going to crash this colleague's apartment after shopping! haha....yes...shopping again!

just a short update. real lazy to upload my pics.

great, now i feel pukish.

off to bed. congrats people.

This is a bit over-due, but happy birthday to all early-july babies!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday Step, Choo, AiLian, Jenni, Gordee~!!!! I love ya~ did i miss out any?

okie...im totally not making any sense now. adios muchachos.

Full...

2007-07-12T10:01:00.000+08:00

Full.....

just when you thought your grass is yummy, the grass on the other side looks much yummier.

grrrrrrrr! $8k?! no wonder you can sponser half my flight lah! bambi leh!! you better get me my gucci wallet!!!!! you know who you are mister hard-to-please!

on a sunnier note, my heels broke! haha... now i have blisters on my feet for walking barefooted all the way from my office to my hotel. bambi!!!!! its one of my nicer heels.

but why issit sunnier note??

well.....cos i get to buy another pair? haha...come to think of it...i think my feet just purposely spoilt it.

gosh....convocation! i missed a very important part of my educational journey!!!!! wish i were there. but well, its nice seeing pictures you guys put up. Its as if I were there.......but not quite.

oh no.....its not even 2 weeks and i spent like $1000 already! I'm really bad at managing my finances. any financial planner around? I might just need to hire you! haha.

Eat eat eat eat... i feel heavier already. Shall get the gym pass and go do yoga tomorrow! i can only do yoga cos i dint bring my sportshoe!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hey friends, lets go sign up for packages when i get back!!!!! like dance?

I miss dancing! I miss clubbing! I miss grooving to the music. I just dance in my hotel room every once in a while. How dumb. haha....

Updates

2007-07-10T12:02:00.000+08:00

Updates

Okies, very soon you guys will see pretty pictures of me~!!! cos the hotel computers have sd card reader!!!!! and i'll try to get pictures from my colleagues, cos i'm so lazy to take pictures outside.

Life is soooo much funner with people around. I really thank everyone for being around. I was almost about to lose my sanity. I think I am not someone who can survive on an island all alone.

Yes, I've got a confession to make. I've gone shopping again and spent another US$150...please please! someone stop me!!!!!!!! I'm gonna spend all my cash even before i go OUTLET shopping!!!

But this time round, i went with my colleagues!! Was their guide for the day. Going shopping together, although not as efficient as solo-shopping, is definitely not boring and scary.

Carol: the mineral make up here is good. So far so good. Will give a full detailed review after 2 weeks. coverage can be anything from sheer to full. And its so fun to play with! mixing around with the different shades to achieve different looks. I'm sold! I'm gonna get more before heading back to singapore. Anyone wants anything, please tell me in advance. But please dont ask for HEAVY stuffs. My luggage was already 27kg coming here.

Cailing: the benetint is US$28 if i dint remember wrongly. but benetint not as much raved as NARS orgasm or Benefit Moonbeam. I think these 2 won some allure awards or something. I know!!! Choo told me about the Benefit in Singapore. I thought i can be amongst the cool people using benefit stuffs! now everyone is gonna have it. boohoo.... but is it cheap there?

The clinique here is cheaper btw. But only by a few dollars.

Nuff of shopping, on to serious stuffs. I am really glad to have a great bunch of people around. They have all the experience and best of all, they are so willing to share their knowledge. Its like a whole big team effort, more than competition environment. Which i find it really great. I would hate to deal with office politics.

But my HR manager and pretty mentor takes effort to send messages frequently to check up on me. How many HR manager will drop/exchange e-mails on a bi-daily basis to just to check up on you?!

Yah...I'm busy counting my blessings now. I love my company~

I love my hotel too~!! HAPPY HOURS every mon-wed!! free BEER and chips! greedy me gulped down 2 bottles. shall go for more tomorrow!! at this rate, i'll go back with a beer belly and 15lbs of extra weight!

2007-07-07T09:55:00.000+08:00

Shopping Spree~!!!

today, training ended early.........so I decided to give myself a little treat and go on a lil shopping spree~!!

wooolaalaa~~~ Adventure man i tell you~ I thought since im shopping alone. should be done in a couple of hours. but hell no~!!! i spent like 5+ hours there and i only covered like 10% of the place?

The whole place is HUMONGOUS!!!! with all the brands u can ever think of~!!!! Sephora, Victoria secrets, Forever 21 (which they name XXI here), Coach, Gap, Coldstones.....the list can go on forever...........

To top it off, everything's on SALE~ or so they claim. But prices compared to Singapore.... definitely a steal.

Dallas is definitely a shopping paradise as claimed by many books and sites.

I bought:

bareMinerals....A whole collection of MINERAL MAKE UPs, after being psychoed so much by carol. I guess, its high time i start to take good care of my skin. (although the make up artist did say i have VERY good skin!!) I think i spent like US$100+ on all these.... it better be as good as they claim to be... can sleep in it~!
NARS Orgasm! i so so wanted it since dunno when.
Benefit Moonbeam! many raves about it.
Sephora Liquid foundation (50% off)
Sephora Lipglosses (just cheap)
Loads of make up brushes~!!!!!! they were going at half price. and they are made from real animals. wat a bargain~
Forever 21 LBD (short)
Forever 21 LBD (long)
Forever 21 vest
Calvin Klein lingerie

Damage done: US$300 in just 1 day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! there goes my whole week of per diem...

Victoria Secrets was having a major sale, but due to time constraints, i didn't buy any.

I tell you, US of A rawks lah~!!!!!! you want what.....u got what~~! I can stay here for good and marry some rich ang moh~!!!

But my area here is soooooo scary. After 8pm........its like all black. Not being racist or anything. but its really scary. I shall rush back home before the clock strikes 8pm like cinderella~

I'm damn happy with my buy lah. Wanted to get my SD card reader. but do u think i had the time? muhahaha.....

Alright, i shall go watch my mineral make up tutorial....:D:D

2007-07-06T08:02:00.000+08:00

you know i would love to post pictures up, but silly me dint bring my data cable. and this lappie doesnt have any sd card reader. so bear my non-pictorial entries.

i thought being a business analyst means i need not have anything to do with ENGINEERING stuffs. guess im wrong. whole lot of Energy stuffs coupled with sales/trading terms.

all equates to load of trouble. massive trouble.

But its really very interesting. I never knew Singapore's Energy industry is the way it is.

The more I get to know about my job, the more hard-core sales it is. Not that i dislike it. But I'm not sure I'm up for this challenge. It means meeting lots of new people, and trying to get into their good books, be it by honest means or by forms of "treats".

Haha.... I will never know until i get into work proper.

Darn, I'm hungry again.

Before i forget (but well, i won't forget, not over my dead body), HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARIE CHOO~!!!!!!!!! I wish i can be in Singapore giving u a big hug and celebrating it with you, but .......... oh well....wait for me....i'll be back with a sweet surprise (or so i hope). hahaha... love ya lots....darn...sounds so poseur-ish.

2007-07-05T16:49:00.001+08:00

darn, i think im jet lagging. fancy awake at 4am yet sleeping at 4pm. and due to me sleeping, i've got no dinner. yes, im starving like crazy now.

luckily i da-baoed cereals and milk. muhahaha.....being cheapo helps~!!!

still hungry. how i wish i stole more food. hahaha...

i did my homework anyhow. its so hard~!!! when i haven't even gone through the software training.

Tomorrow's another new day. starting to get a little bored. its like school all over again.... just this time, you have to perform even better.

Becoming more and more homesick. Having monthly cramps is not helping.

oh well.....shall go find more food....

Life of a Struggling Yuppie

2007-07-04T05:52:00.000+08:00

Life of a Struggling Yuppie-wannabe

alrighty, here i am AGAIN. haha...see what boredom does?

Day two.....went pretty well, with 2 homeworks to do!

The weather here is so dry that i keep breaking my nails. i broke two of my toenails just by kicking on something. it just breaks and bleeds! *ouch*

Maybe i should start pouring moisturizer to my nails to make it less brittle. Like it will help~

Wow, i tell you my mentor is super well known here. Everywhere i go, im associated with her. And they all say that Grace will know everything. Grace handles everything.

I am so impressed. My role model~ haha...

Yeah!! my colleague is coming over soon to pass me stuffs. free stuffs like detergents .... i know...im so cheapo~! what to do? I dont have sweet bfs who buys COACH stuffs for me. I gotta scrimp and save to buy them....

I'm really saving on food to go shopping~! hahaha...i dabao the free breakfast and have it for lunch! muhahahaha.... now my stomach's a bit queasy.

I was told i can travel to any parts of America FREE~!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this spells trouble. meaning i have to scrimp and save more.......maybe i should also dabao dinner??? :D:D:D

I'm just loving my company more and more. Darn, im so easily contented. So not me.

Howdy~!

2007-07-03T05:18:00.000+08:00

yeeehaaa....landed safely in Dallas, Texas after a grueling over 24 hours flight. But the hotel and peeps here are really great~! And the thing about them associating Singapore with China is so so true.

Texasian: So, where are ya from?
Ju: Singapore.
Texasian: Ohhh.....Is there somewhere near China?
Ju: Ahhh....No....It's near Malaysia?
Texasian: Ohhhh....But you speak really good English.
Ju: Thanks. Yeah, we speak English there...
Texasian: Really? But your English is really good.

Haha...The main gist : Ju speaks good english~ I never throw Singapore's face hor!~! *bleah*

Anywayz, me blogging means.......I've got my new lappie~!!!!! and its damn good lah...brand new ibm notebook leh.....with dunno what finger-indentifier thinggie. however, there aint any sd card slots....so i have no way of updating my pics till i get some sd card reader.

Well, well.....how was first day of work (or rather training)?

ermmm...ermmm....nice?

Well, let's talk about welfare first.... they do have a GREAT (and i mean really great) pantry. Its like freaking 7-11~!! got a whole big bar to choose your drinks and snacks!~! I was so tempted to steal some to my hotel room. Talking about it makes my stomach growl.... I just hope the one in Singapore is equally good.

Now for the actual training...... it was very intense. and i think im like the youngest there? so there are lots of stuffs im new to. I guess i will have lots of catching up to do before the big business meeting in August.

The people there are great. everyone greets and talks to each other even though they have no idea who you are! haha.... and met this nice girl who says she will bring me to outlet shopping~!!! yeehaa~!!

well, i'm starting to love this place. other than the fact that I cant get out past 8pm due to security reasons. Can't wait to meet more new people here. I'm gonna die soon from loneliness.

I think my overseas luck in pretty good. Everytime I'm overseas, I have good job offers. Darn, too late. and I love my company too much to leave it.

To friends in Singapore: Please do not call me. First thing is the phonebills are outrageously expensive. and secondly, the timing is horrible.

I got rudely awaken at 3am in the morning by some calls and couldn't get back to sleep!!! So i tossed and turned in bed till 6am!!!!! So, unless it's emergency (i.e. you miss me that badly) if not, let's keep it to e-mailing~! E-mails rawks! did i mentioned I got a new lappie?~ hahaha...

There i go babbling non-stop...cos im bored!!!!!!!! help!!!!!!

A big shoutout too everyone~!!!! Thanks for the well-wishes and the free mudpie treat!!! Special thanks to carol for being so sweet as always. You never fail to make ppl around you feel special.

We'll just know..

2007-06-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

Everything is going on so fast, that reality hasn't sunk in yet.

I'm just doing everything that's to be done asap.

Running here running there. Reading this reading that.

This job certainly has no room for procrastination.

30 June. 1 week before reality sets in.

I'm already having my doubts.

What if........

Oh well, lets not go there shall we?

Stepping out of your comfort zone is really a big challenge.

When the time comes, we'll just know..

All in a day's work~

2007-06-20T19:07:00.000+08:00

im so sleepy now, but i guess i cant contain the excitement so here i go~

slept at 6am....why??? doing the crude oil industry presentation. i know, i procratinated till the very last minute. and i was totally unprepared for the presentation. in fact, i never even rehearsed it. not even once. at 1pm today, i was still touching up on the slides.

today's presentation was a flop i tell u. i really had no idea what i was presenting. basically, i was reading off the slides. my worstest ever presentation. (even worse than my FYP presentation) i can somehow sense that the interviewers weren't exactly interested nor particulary thrilled with my performance.

When the presentation was over, i was like so demoralized. but i told myself, i cant lose just yet. i must buck up and all the more i should present myself better for the next part of the interview. But, i dunno if its due to my lack of sleep or what, i fumbled, real bad. i kept beating around the bush. i swear i felt like digging my head in the ground.

But i redeemed myself when it was my turn to ask questions. I asked them back the questions they asked me.....haha~ i was curious as to what the answers were what... and to my surprise, the interviewer said i did a pretty much good research with my limited background. and with that, they invited the MD to come talk to me.

In my mind, i was like MD? so am i like almost confirmed la? But i still had my doubts....

So in came Mr MD and he asked how my performance was...

Interviewer A: It was TERRIBLE....
Ju: =cringed= oh no~
Interviewer A: Just kidding. it was good. (pause) pretty comprehensive blah blahblah.......

i tell you, my heart nearly jumped when i heard terrible~ and when there was a pause, all that was in my mind was: was interviewer A's just saying i was good cos i was there? like "fu yan" me? out of courtesy?

but the MD was really a great guy. he made me at ease, and all throughout the interview, he was joking around.

Usually, during the interview, if they are interested, they will drops hints and signs.... but i got none this time round..... or maybe im just being overly sensitive.

My whole journey back home was torturous....in my mind, all that i can think of was, i am screwed....there goes my wasted effort...

Reached home
Checked my mails....... 2 new mails from the HR manager and the preview looked like this....

preview 1: It was great meeting you earlier on
preview 2: Sorry for that.

There goes my chance........ but i stilled opened up my mail.....and VOOOLLLAAAAA~!!!! i got the job~!!!! the second mail was "sorry for that. here are the attachments"

darn......went through so much all in a day~!!!! im just so thankful for getting this job~!!! thank you Lord~!!!! now shall get my much deserved beauty rest~

USA~!! here i come~!!! muhahahaha

Working World

2007-06-17T01:53:00.000+08:00

great~ just great.....

just when i thought this Business Development Analyst job is what i really want......Nat comes and tell me that the procurement job is still not taken up.... I seriously hope the job is waiting for me....... why else would it be empty?~! muhahaha.....

due to the HR person quitting at an awkward time, and me being in taiwan at the wrongest possible time, the 2nd interview never happened.

sigh.....im very sure the procurement job has much better prospects and its a really great opportunity for a fresh grad. But its a deskbound job.... but that nat keep promoting his company~ saying all the great perks etc....

the biz analyst job is a very interesting job, whereby i will meet new clients and travel once every month. But the company, i just checked isnt a very big company (although its clients are real BIGSHOT clients) with only a revenue of $9.6 million.......

oh well.....wait till i get the job first...... the presentation research alone is killing me...

met up with my secondary 2 friends......really great meeting them. the only time we meet is for birthday celebrations. [happy birthday junee} although i kinda drifted apart (or so i think), i still love them bits, and every time we meet up, its like we were never apart.

talking to working adults really opened up my eyes. and they are really a great help in giving me a sneak preview of the working life...... one word.....TOUGH! haha...

and they are very self-enriching. taking up a degree while working/taking time off work to study or pursuing something they like. i find their attitude really very praise-worthy. and they are paying all these school fees by themselves!!!!!

looking at myself, i lived a life far too sheltered. at the age of 23, im still asking my parents for allowance!!! and my uni school fees and laptop loans will be paid off by my parents. i know.....i cant ask for better parents.

wonder how i would turn out if my parents totally heck cared me.... will i be more mature? or will i be my cynical? guess i wont find that out this life-time.

i think i really need to be out in the working world to see it for myself. and see how much i will change and grow. my dad says i will do well, but seriously i wonder how i will fare. i dont wanna be a mean backstabbing bitch, but i guess if the occassion arises, i will do what it takes to secure my place. only God knows what will happen.

so for now, lets just do what i can do with everything's that i've got. and leave the worrying till later.

I want this job!

2007-06-15T00:36:00.000+08:00

oh yeah~~

went for the nice job interview today.....and i told you they really like me lah~!! *flicks hair* 2 hours after the interview, they e-mailed me asking me down for a final interview....which happens to be a "SALES PRESENTATION" interview~?!@#!?@`

i forsee myself doing tonnes of research work for this presentation........ not even hired yet, need to work liao....

But the interviewee was soooooooooooo pretttttty~!!!!!!!! i was expecting some mid-30s power woman, but wow~!!!! a tall, model looking lady with a nice american accent~!!!!!! i was so impressed by her. she was not only pretty, she knew her stuffs and was really nice and patient with me..... no wonder she got promoted 2 times in 3 years~!

but i guess i kinda screwed up the interview......

when they asked for my career objectives guess what smart me said: lots of promotions~! muhahahahaha.... of cos i backed up with more smart answers... but still...im still unsure of my career objectives...... unlike cai, i dont wanna be a professional engineer..... i just wanna earn big bucks~! hahaha....thats my career objectives....which sini said its a bad one....grrrr......

the interview went on with lots of other mishaps..... but well...im thankful for being called in for the final int.....i wanna go dallas and work under a pretty mentor~!!!!! woohooo~~

great~ presentation preparation now~ i really hope to get this job. cant stand it!!!!! unemployment sucks........ nobody to play with me~~ like practically everyone is working~!!!!! i need a job soooooooon.... need to bring bread and butter to the table~

but~ unemployment has its benefits......parents still pay for everything~ muhahaha... i bought like $250 worth of clothes today~ and i have my eyes on a $100+ shoes..... which im so gonna get it... wanted to buy today since mummy's around....but darn was late for my 4/5 meeting~ hahaha.... my mind is filled with this shoe......although it has a bit of the CFM look, but wat the heck.....CFM then CFM lah~ haha

while the whole world is working, here i am blogging..... *yawnz*

My Collage

2007-06-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

yippee!! i've got eye infection. i seriously have no idea how i got it. I did nothing out of the ordinary. must be the new contacts!!!!! grrrrrr.....

i know i should be actively looking for a job yada yada.... but well, since i've some spare time at hand, I decided to indulge myself in a little forsaken hobby: Arts and Craft~!

So, i sat down, took out some glue and started doing a collage~!

not those internet photo collage mind you

Something way more sophisticated and classier

Tada!!!!!

i know. im like a little kid showing off her artwork~ but isnt it just wonderful?!

its not exactly easy you know! especially when Her World isnt an ideally colourful magazine....

I had a phone interview with a nice company. and well, i think i perform better during phone interviews! can sense that they really like me... *flicks hair* hahaha..

Hope they like the life-size me~ then i can go US~!!!! woohooo....outta tiny lil' singapore. Then again, too early to be dreaming....

How can i even go for interviews when my eye is seriously infected. i shall keep washing my eyes.....

Shiok Ah~

2007-06-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

today, after many months of aching shoulder/neck/back, i finally went for my massage after meeting the girls~ one word.....SHIOK~!

damn pain can? the painest massage...i was screaming inside......but i love pain, so it was by far the bestest massage everr~~ SHIOK SHIOK SHIOK.... the guy was damn nice..... extended my time by like 10mins.......

but well.....burnt another big hole in my wallet~

those who want shiok, ultra painful massage, this is the place to throw your money-->>Kohong Health Products & Foot-Reflexology Centre

SHIOK AH!

Taiwan 101

2007-06-10T21:41:00.001+08:00

yeah.....you should have guessed as much..... the princess is bored. hence meddling with some crappy picture collage program.

have no idea how to get the evaluation thing off......

next toy: flash!!!!!

Sex and the City

2007-06-10T19:10:00.000+08:00

My all time favourite~ It speaks so well, especially to single women in their mid thirties. Well, technically, I'm not even near my thirties, but I enjoy it nonetheless. I do related to the being single part, fyi.

I know its like a many years ago tv series, but still, watching it again has brought my definition of singlehood to a whole new level. I was like in JC when i last watched it. My face wrung when my sis first intro-ed me and i had my fair bit of skepticism. what can possibly be so interesting about 4 thirty year olds talking about their sex-lives? and watching it then.... was like a crude sex show, which i still loved dearly. But i found new appreciation to the whole SATC thing.

It has just the right bit of everything!!!! Amazing cast, wonderful fashion, lovely quotes, witty humour, killer shoes. and the title says it all, it has lots of SEX, SEX and more SEX. haha... I love American series and how they are so open with everything. No wonder for a while, it was banned in Singapore.

Watching it made me wanna go live in NYC, partying every night with rich and famous people appearing on covers of Fortune magz.....yeah...im dreaming. seeing how successful these 4 women are (in the show), especially Samantha Jones, I truly fantasize me being them. Although i do know that what's portrayed in SATC is totally elitist. But still!!! irregardless!!!!

I can't seem to find my season four!!!! wonder where my pesty lil sis left it.... i need SATC!! you guys should watch it... however, warning: it has sex scenes and lots of sex noises. i have to lower my volume everytime they do IT.....for the fear of my parents thinking im watching some porno. But truly, SATC is the BOMB!!!! i cant wait for the movie to be out!!!!!!!

And now....for more SATC~! woot woot~ (can't believed i blogged one whole page on this....)

Total tirednism.....

2007-06-06T22:31:00.000+08:00

Total tirednism.....

Going for interviews after interview is really energy draining.... especially if the wonderful company is in SUNNY JURONG ISLAND...... dont even get me started. *hah*

Another bank interview tomorrow.... but feeling the monthly woes....

Going for interviews and crapping your way through when you don't exactly know what you want is a terrible feeling. it's like lying through your teeth and like super promoting yourself without the least but of subtleness...

I guess interviewers really enjoy doing this....:/ I mean, its really interesting seeing how BHB one can get. Maybe i should apply to be some HR personnel~ muhahahaha~

jokes aside, i really need to find my calling soon. but my dad, and even the interviewers, says no hurry, especially first job. blah blah blah.....

enough whining about career issues. my nails are in such a bad state. dry and all yellow.... carol~!!!! when are u gonna do my nails for me??? *shoots out my hands and joo's nails waiting to be pampered* muhahaha....

and to a certain friend, im sorry. my bad. i shoulda known better than to jump into silly conclusions. i owe u one......well, in fact many .... friends forever~ haha thats so cliche`

Jazz Lovelies~

2007-06-01T00:31:00.000+08:00

Had KTV with the lovely jazz girls~ and also to celebrate darling jiaxin's birthday~!!

Happy 22nd Birthday girl~!!!

sorry had to spoil the surprise element...but i think it was still a blast~ with serena and elaine doing the disappearing act for 1 hour!!!!!!

and serena doing her weird antics........solo-duet...... and now great...the phantom songs are stuck in my head...:/

of course we had our usual dosage of self-admiration....aka photo-taking~

xiaoling looks so high.....and her hair.....CLASSIC~!!! muhahahaha....

a second shot still does no help.... SHAVE BALD!!!! SHAVE BALD!!!!!!! muhahahahaha...

Pretty lah pretty lah~